Sorry in advance for the long read, summary at bottom. I have yet to find anyone (including bloodline) that reacts to MDMA the way I do and I'm very curious if anyone here has a similar reaction. I (M36) tried MDMA last year for the first time after having alot of successful therapeutic psychedelic sessions (solo). The first couple times were underwhelming, then I unintentionally (was high, wont do again) consumed about .4 Grams throughout the night and finally felt the euphoria and energy of MDMA and was in heaven. However, I noticed that I wanted to move so badly and that I couldn't stop dancing to the music i had playing. I've NEVER been a dancer and always had social inhibitions, but this just felt so freeing and natural. On top the energetic part, I couldn't help to feel that someone ELSE was present within the experience, almost like a polar opposite of my ego, or even a yin-yang type of personality/shadow that felt like a hidden, repressed individual within me. This experience was extremely profound as it opened me up In the most profound way possible, becoming a better husband, father, friend. I've dealt with ALOT of surgeries and physical injuries from being an extreme sport enthusiasts, and 8 years in the Marines (this should explain my character a little, haha) and after having a very bad dirt bike crash a couple years ago that left one of my deltoids paralyzed, I thought I'd never been able to find a physical outlet again and I was going to physically and mentally wither away until I die. Since that MDMA experience I found that I LOVE to dance and it's a place where my mind, body, and spirit align and I can fall into a trance and dance for hours non-stop, literally. I've became more healthier, fitter, and confident than I've ever been. And within a short time, Ive gotten pretty good at shuffling. I've since been diagnosed by multiple doctors with ADHD, which also has been a pivotal moment as well. Now when I take MDMA, I turn into a NON-STOP-DANCE-MACHINE, it's absolutely fucking bonkers. I literally feel that I am not in control of any of it, it's like I'm on a roller coaster or a bucking bull just as the passenger to the machine itself. I mean, the first time "IT" was happening, I couldn't think to myself "Wait, I'm a raver? What is this that's happening!?". My best friend was a big raver in the 90's and always said raving and dancing was special, but I never understood what he meant. When I told him I tried molly and like to dance he was excited for me he didn't understand what I meant until we rolled together this spring, It blew his mind on my dancing, energy, and love that I was radiating and he said he's never seen THAT before and he supports me 1,000%, and gave me the nick name The Love Generator 😊. Ive broke out of my comfort zone to camp solo at music festivals a couple times this year to see the culture, feel the music, and dance on MDMA. I clearly was on a different level of energy and dancing than 99.9% of people there and I was often complimented on my dancing, energy, flow art,...and physique 😊😄🤷‍♂️. HERE IS THE THING....when I'm not dancing and there is no music Molly turnes me into a fucking raging bull or a thoroughbred at the gate ready to race and GO, huffing and puffing, just wanting to fuck and dance, but mostly dance 🤣. Its pretty intense for bystanders to watch me in this state, as I'm barrel-chested, flexing, and rocking side-to-side searching for the nearest beat to dance to, yet I'm full of LOVE and would never hurt anyone, if anything I would protect them as that is my nature. Molly is my X-kryptonite.

Summary: MDMA helped me discover dancing and being more open around people, as well as discovering I have ADHD. I seem to stick out (positively) like a sore thumb at festivals regarding my dancing and energy, and the intensity of my Molly character. However when I'm on MDMA, especially with no music to dance to, I'm a raging thoroughbred that's snarling, huffing and puffing, flexing, amd rocking back and forth pretty intensly and is just DYING to DANCE and fuck. I mean absolutely no harm in this state, but it's pretty wild. The people who know me love it. Molly is my X-krptonite. Does anyone else have a similar reaction?