I don’t typically do trip reports, but since I was anticipating this last one so much, and it was really strange— I’d figure I’d share here. Maybe I can get some advice or share similar experiences with other mdma users— (I am so sorry for the incredibly long read).

Leading up to this last roll (April 11th) I was on a strict vitamin regime! All recommended supplements, Acetyl-L-Carnitine, L-Lysine, NAC, 5-HTP, Alpha Lipoic Acid, Suntheanine, Biotin, Coenzyme Q10, Green Tea Extract, Vitamin C, D, and Magnesium citrate daily. My partner and I stopped taking them one week before our roll, limited caffeine and processed foods, stayed hydrated, and got plenty of sleep. The last time we rolled before this was December, 4 months ago, and we did 110 50mg (me) and 120 60mgs (partner). Roll was amazing!

The night before our most recent roll, we admittedly didn’t sleep great (one of the first no-nos). We had a road trip the next day, so were asleep at 10pm the night before, and up at 5:30am to start driving. Partner and I each had an energy drink later in the day to keep up (second no-no). We went on a small hike, had a light lunch (gluten-free chicken and salad), played some pool, and met up with my friend who lives where we were visiting. Our last meal/drinks ended at 1pm, I had no alcohol, partner had one drink. We managed 10k steps that day too!

We were planning on dropping at 7pm, but got antsy and decided to drop at 6:30pm instead.

My boyfriend messed up here— we think he accidentally took his redose before his main dose. Couldn’t tell the difference in between the two capsules, and we both assume he chose wrong, so he ended up taking 60mg before his 110mg— which unavoidably created a really long, plateauing come-up for him. (Oops.) Mine were easy to tell the difference, so I took my 100mg, and my 50mg an hour later, which at that point I was beginning to feel it. We’ve never dosed outside of home, but now we know to mark both capsules differently, it was incredibly difficult to tell which of his was which.

Boyfriend comes up, ends up having a nice time— but pretty overwhelming high. I begin to peak, but it was never like an mdma high I experienced before. And yes, we tested and weighed our drugs! Using Marquis, Simon’s A/B, Froehde, Liebermann, and Mecke, and dancesafe’s .000mg scale. When people describe their highs as “speedy,” that’s what I’d compare it to, but our batch didn’t test positive for any amphetamines.

Like I said, this was our first time rolling away from home, in a peaceful, quiet hotel, with great scenery. Usually, we lay at home in soft lighting, with a movie or some soft music playing, we cuddle, we kiss, shower, tease. Not this time. Maybe it had to do with set and setting? My brain was going a million miles a minute, I wanted to do everything, I talked to the front desk staff to arrange a fire, who then sent me to the restaurant to ask them, I chatted with the bartender, bf lead me back up to our room. I wanted to go in the hot tub, so we chatted with the few people in there, but I remember rubbing my hands so anxiously and having this overwhelming fear of being perceived. Boyfriend eventually wanted to go back upstairs, so we did.

At this point I started to notice how much of an absolute head high I was experiencing, almost no tactile body high— just all the energy straight up into my brain. I don’t even think I experienced any real euphoria. Felt pretty fine physically except for when I looked at a screen. Then it felt like my eyes were going in four different directions and I was crying because I couldn’t read or type. Usually I have no problems or little issues navigating my phone on molly— even though I enjoy and do my best to be in the present! Throughout the rest of the high I was rambling the entire time. My boyfriend was trying to guide me through it, leading the conversation, suggesting activities. We tried to have sex 6 times but before we would even begin to get intimate I would be distracted with something else. As the night went on I got hyper obsessed with my phone and I can’t even remember what I was doing on it. I called my neighbour at one point and asked if I could move in with her?? Which I’m so humiliated about. I know I was loud talking in our hotel room, I tried my best to be quiet but got really passionate talking about soulmates, then realized how loud I was talking and shut down so embarrassed. I think having others around in the resort played into my anxiety. Not to mention, my perception of time was absolutely abolished. Normally I have a really good grip and can gauge it well. This time, 2 minutes felt like 30 minutes, and it was an infinite loop of me asking, “it’s only ___?” but the entire high really only seemed like it lasted an hour, when we were high for well around 6 and I have no real recollection of anything else.

It got worse when I took a 5mg edible for the comedown. I had the memory of a fish. My bf asked three different times for me to grab his nicotine pouches. I would walk to our bag, and walk back empty handed, and be spewing nonsense.

The next day, we really had no comedown, which is different from the last few times. I guess I’m just really sad because we had this idea planned for so long and I was a horrible girlfriend during it, with no memory of that night except for bits and pieces. I was really excited to have a fun night too, since we were pairing with cialis for the first time. I’m left questioning why this one was so terrible, when we’ve taken higher doses in the past and never ever had an experience like this one. (No I’m not on any type of medication, just took green tea extract and magnesium bisglycinate citrate before and during the roll.)

Could it be any crazy-scary adulterants? The lack of sleep the night before? Drinking caffeine during the day? Different setting? Possibly taking too much— since we were taking supplements to increase the quality of our high? I don’t know!!

It’s honestly made me not want to do molly ever again if it’s going to be like that, so I’m debating giving it a chance after a long break in 9 months.

Any suggestions, insight, advice would be greatly appreciated