I’m pretty new to mdma and wondering if anyone has had a similar experience or knows what might have happened.

I’ve probably had it 10 times in the last year or so. The first few times were great. I dosed pretty mildly and would get great euphoria, and only mild comedowns.

Each time I used it the comedowns got progressively worse. I had one episode where the comedown was so horrific. Emotional instability, extreme anxiety, depression and irritability for about 3 days.

I took a 3 month break and tried it again. This time was even worse, I was euphoric for about 2 hours after dosing then started coming down immediately. It lasted 48 hours and I was borderline psychotic. Felt completely out of control and was experiencing just the worst sense of doom.

I had an even longer break, and have transitioned off lexapro. I thought that might have been the issue. I tried it one more time. I had been in a good headspace and had really been looking after my health. I took a half dose and was super careful and paying attention to the high/ any negative feelings. Same thing, started coming down rapidly after 2 hours and it was just horrors. I didn’t re dose, just rode out the comedown and was ok by the next morning.

Is my brain just broken? It feels like something has happened and I’m metabolising it super rapidly.. the high/ comedown is so fast and volatile.