I know this is silly but I love you all and am scared and don't have too many to people to vent to, so... I'm posting this. I will update soon and it could be nothing, but just had to let out a little fear this way.

Love you all!

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EDIT: all okay! Phe2wwwwww... I had one spiky thing that she said is totally normal for thin, active men and that I need to chill the fuck out. I'm so relieved... this has been eating me for years (occaisional skipped heartbeat), which is also very normal. Sorry for the lame post, down vote away, I'll be in server soon!!!

EDIT2: back at home, I know this is kind of dumb, but for some reason MCNSA was one of my first thoughts when I had these horrible fantasies about dying, like "who would tell them? WOuld they notice?" And I know I'm not there all the time, but it's a part of who I am and always will be. So yeah. Feeling much relieved, and if your heart has skipped a beat and you freaked out, never fear! Apparently it happens to almost everyone! -_-