Hi all. New to all this, have been reading a bunch to try and get a better idea of what I’m in for. My dr has started me on 5mg morning and night. I have stopped taking vortioxetine 10mg yesterday. I am still on Latuda 80 mg once a day and lamotragine 200mg twice a day. As well as my adhd meds. Ritalin and dex twice a day.

I’m to do 5mg morning and night for a week, then bump up to 10mg morning and night, for a couple of weeks then 20mg in the morning and 10 at night. But after last nights poor sleeping, I might do it in the afternoon.

Do you think I’ll be able to function? I have lawyer appointments, school events etc that I need to attend during the day. I was assaulted by my husband in 2020 and we have now divorced and are going through a messy separation of assets. So that doesn’t help. My psychiatrist suggested I go back to the psych hospital for a few weeks to get this medication safely implemented but I can’t. My ex’s lawyer would rip me apart with children custody and I don’t want to leave them that long again. And we are also thinking of doing TMS.

I also do ketamine nasal spray, but will be stopping that in 2 weeks as it just isn’t working. We are talking about TMS next.

I am so sick of not feeling better. I feel like I am in quicksand and I don’t care. My lethargy is ridiculous. My kids are now working on just screen time and I can barely take care of myself.

I don’t know what I am looking for here. Advice, words of encouragement that I am doing the right thing. And that I can still drink my morning red bull. I had a coffee as I forgot I should monitor myself before I had one.

I have a cuff to check blood pressure but feel fine. When should I be checking it?

Thank you for reading this massive story of my depressed life.