I was diagnosed with ADHD 4 years again. At 40. Explains a lot from my childhood, pissed me off that I wasn’t diagnosed earlier. But what are you going to do? I have also been diagnosed with bp2.

As far as adhd goes, So far I’ve been trialed on various amounts of dex and Ritalin. Currently trying Vyvanse. I have a diagnosis of bpd2. I’m wondering if one has been diagnosed and not treated correctly. I have terribl e executive function. I do have waves of emotions, but they move so quick. A week or so here a week or so there. But at the moment. My get up and go has gone. I can’t remember anything. I can’t be bothered with anything, even my driving has been impacted. I procrastinate and google which baskets will help me organise my life by being able to pick up stuff in a room each night. Hours I will spend on this.

So currently I’m on parnate (MAOI antidepressant), latuda, lamotragine, Vyvanse and Ritalin. I do have access to lyrica as well. I feel like a shaker toy. Regardless of all this, I still can’t bring myself to do anything. Except, when I have a day. Then it all gets done, and anyone who gets in my way will cop it. But then it’s back to researching things I could be doing, should be doing. Forgetting everything. Wondering why I am in a room holding something from another room, putting that down and picking something up, til I do a full circle and completely start something else.

The amount of money I have spent buying things that are going to help me organise myself. It’s mad. Then they just sit there adding to the mess that is my house, brain, life. So then I but things to store stuff in. I forget and buy more organisation things, and on it goes.

I have tried writing things down, that’s probably my most successful way of remembering to do stuff. But if I don’t do it straight away. It’s gone. Sometimes I worry I have alzheimers or something. Life has to be easier than this, surely.

I sometimes go out socially, it scares me as I am so afraid of rejection, it usually ends up ok. I do the fake it til you make it thing. But find myself taking over conversations.

So I guess I’m just after ideas of different meds you have tried to see what works for you? I know that a lot of off label,stuff is prescribed for adhd. So that’s what I am interested in. As I need help. I can’t procrastinate my life away. My poor kids.

Also, I’m going through a nasty divorce from my violent ex. That’s fun too… so stuck in a house I can’t change about, that I love but may have to sell if he wants a lot of money. So the kids and I will lose the home. Yay. I’m so stressed, I’m loosing my hair. So any advice on that too, would be amazing lol.

Thanks for reading all this. I know it’s a lot.