[Beat](https://youtu.be/ss0fcRnHk9g)

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Shoulda been dead last year

I'm a cashier

Had my family mourn me, every morning I'm aghast

Here I lie, unrested

Divinely unaffected

Perspective 'bout the same, except I left expensive messes

Torrent in my psyche

Torture lurks in my dreams

I think I killed a kid and it is giving me anxiety

I'm stuck in this society

Still isn't a priority

To me, I'm still a nihilist

I'm still mixed up so violently

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Shoulda took another path, I should've turned around

Had I hadn't had someone, I wouldn't have been found

Got into philosophy, I found some shit I like

But I just can't shake it off of me, I feel so dead inside

My feet contact the surface but the gravity subsides

Carried by the tide, I've arrived but still I'm dry

The earth's still solid

Unyielding and unpolished

Still dishonest

Still in conflict

It still offers little solace

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Livin' in the moment 'cause I broke my brain

There's snow, drive slow, look both ways

Feeling like a ghost, like I've overstayed

Go home, fold clothes, soak the plates

Still feel a sense of doom and my soul is frayed

Roast to be frozen, dispose of waste

I try to see the future but my focus fades

Load a bowl, light a smoke, close the shades