I don’t even know if I’m capable of a relationship at this point. I have a lot of anger and disappointment inside. Every time someone gets engaged, I get angry. I check to see how long they’ve been together for and if they’re with someone the same amount of time I’ve been with someone for, I get angry. I’m not worth an engagement ring after a year together but SOMEONE ELSE is?? And yes I do see a therapist and she knows my struggles. Any one with a baby announcement, engagement announcement or wedding photos I just stew inside. All I want to do is protect myself from this pain.

I don’t rain on anyone’s happiness, I just keep these feelings to myself.