So I'm not sure where to begin. I've honestly started typing this multiple times, and nothing really feels right. I didn't want to just leave without warning again without at least explaining why. Not after the outpouring of support I received when I came back the last time. That's the best way I can think of to start. Growing up I came from a big family seven people lived in my four bedroom house so privacy wasn't something we had a lot of. Something that taught me tho was family came first: no matter what.

This past Summer I had one of the most devastating things happen to me and it was something I would not wish on my worst enemy. Instead of dealing with it and the fall out I started rushing back to get back her. This may sound stupid, but I had the itch to get back to doing this and picking up where I left off I can honestly say now I rushed back and I should have taken more time off.

I'll be the first one to admit that I know this isn't real the championships don't matter at the end of the day, but what did matter was that this place became a distraction for me. Not only that, but at the end of the day I got another family from this. So maybe I rushed back because everyone I cared about was doing these great things and I wanted to be apart of it.

The truth is I'm still dealing with what happened this summer, and this past weekend my family suffered another tragedy. That's why I'm stepping back again. Not because I don't want to be here, but because I need to focus on my family and be there with them as I continue going through these hard times.

I hope you all understand as I do apologize for leaving once again. There was just no way I could go without giving you guys a bit of a background into why it was happening. So this isn't goodbye for good, but goodbye for now.