I’m struggling hard with codependency in my now long distance relationship, and I’ve come to realize I’ve been codependent for a very long time. It is hard to be the problem in my relationship and I feel at one of my very lowest points. We’re taking more time alone and not skyping all the time like we used to or texting all the time and I’m in agony. I sit with my phone in my hands and just wait, hoping for them to call or text. I was feeling sad when they would hang out with others all the time and when they wouldn’t come home until real late, because we couldn’t go to bed together then. And I’ve come to realize just how bad I am, and how I’ve been sucking energy and support from them and made them my life line. And now without them, I feel so worthless and purposeless. I feel so incredibly lonely and I have no good ways of coping. I’m going to therapy this afternoon and I hope that they’re right that it gets worse for a while and then it will be better, but I’m so scared of the change and of losing them. It’s the day before my 18th birthday, and I’ve cried the last 3 days and don’t even care to be alive for my birthday