so I’ve been dating this guy for 5 months almost 6 we are long distance and I don’t think it’s working. He recently sent me this long paragraph about how he thinks I should leave him and find someone else. Mind you when we first started dating it wasn’t on the best terms he had just met me and I was having a bad day and he said he loved me and wanted to protect me in the first 5 seconds of knowing me. Every time we argue he’ll spend unnecessary amounts of money when I tell him I don’t like being spoiled. Last time he bought me 100 dollars worth of food when I told him it made me feel fat and I didn’t want to be fat. He knows I struggle with taking care of myself as far as sleeping and eating. The last time he spent money on me I offered to pay him back for it he told me no and we argued for a bit but he ended up just not taking the money I offered. Recently he told his parents about me and his mom made a comment that I was a gold digger and I was going to rob him of everything he’s worth. He agreed with her a few days later when he asked if I ate and I said I didn’t because I didn’t have money to spend (I was in between jobs living paycheck to paycheck) he said I’ll get you food I told him I wasn’t hungry and to save his money bc he needs it. He then said “if you really wanted me to not send you money you’d find a way to make it so i can’t send you money at all, I’m just saying you could if you wanted to it just seems like you secretly like when I send you money maybe my mom is right and you are going to rob me of all I’m worth I mean I’ve spend 1/3 of my check on you” mind you I don’t ask him for money I try to tell him to not spend money on me I offer to give money back to him and it’s like every time I try to do something nice I get ridiculed. Like for instance I wrote him a song for our anniversary I stayed up all night working on it and sent it to him before he woke up. I woke up to a message with the context of “what is this? Honey there are so many spelling errors it’s hilarious you’d be a terrible writer just saying” Recently he’s been talking about wanting me to have his kids but I have issues with having kids (I’ve been pregnant before but it was due to a SA I lost the baby unfortunately) and I told him I couldn’t really have kids he gave me this whole bs about “you can have kids it’ll be fine we’ll just have to bang a lot”. Like why in the world would you say that to me?. 4 months ago I went to a fair with some friends which ended very badly towards the end of the night which leads to the pregnancy and miscarriage I mentioned. When it happened I just wanted to go home shower and forget it all I ended up telling him the day after and he was pissed said I cheated and that he wanted to have me fly to him so he could basically hold me captive and wipe any trace of me off the earth and keep me to himself. Bc I was still in shock I didn’t talk to him much and he ended up calling the police on me. I later asked him how he viewed me after that incident and he said “honestly you kinda seem like a whore to me because let’s be honest you did cheat because you could’ve stopped him you could’ve fought back called someone literally anything and you just laid there and took it kinda seems like you enjoyed it” I haven’t been able to get those words out my head and I told him that it hurt my feelings and it made me loose love for him, he knows that I don’t say the word love often because growing up people tell me they love me and then turn around and hurt me. So I tend to call bs when someone says they love me. I told him I wanted to break up because it felt like I wasn’t his gf anymore but just an object. Last we called he wanted to buy me a adult toy so we could “play together” every argument we have always ends with a “I swear I will fly out there and f**k you” like I could say I’m sad and I feel like dying and he’ll respond “it’s okay you just need me to put a baby in you and you’ll be happy again”.

I’ve been trying to break up with him because now it just feels like I’m an object of pleasure for him at this point. He says he loves me and he loves the way I make him feel but I’m this stupid girl to him so I know I’m not good at school but I bust my ass and I get through it, I was going over my grades and telling him I had a class I was failing and wanted to fix I showed him what the problem was and he said “honey how do you get a number in this class it’s so easy like cmon I know you’re not book smart but I didn’t think you were just not smart” He’s made fun of the fact I failed school He accused me of cheating when I didn’t it wasn’t my choice He told me if I moved in with him I had to cut ties with everyone I love bc they hurt me and they deserve to die He’s called me terrible with money He’s told me I’m not brightest He’s told me all this stuff yet still tells me he loves me. The first time I brought up breaking up he told me if we broke up things would change he wouldn’t send me money (not that I asked) he wouldn’t call me nicknames or even my name he wanted me to block him on everything yet turned around and said “yk what no you can’t break up with me I won’t let you”

I really really need help idk what to do I could block him and everything but this man would literally fly to my house I mean I called his bluff when he said if needed he’d call the police and he did! It’s like I’m trapped in a relationship where I’m meant to think no one will love me except him.

I’m lost 😞.