My bf and I haven’t been dating long at all like a little over a month. I really love him a lot and he’s the best boyfriend ever. I wanted to maybe come see him for my birthday in June.

Okay wait context

My bf is in school for welding and also works part time at Carl’s Jr, so he doesn’t make much (which obviously doesn’t matter to me) but he wanted to be the first one to spend money to come down here. (He lives in NorCal and I live in SoCal) He feels bad about me doing it first but I don’t care I just want to see him.

So we were talking my birthday and he was like “we might have to do it earlier”. Cause he’s gonna be starting a new muchhhh better and quicker welding program then so I was sad of course for a bit (because i wanted to be with him on the day of my birthday). And so I asked him like when he would want me to come, and he said the sooner the better.

So I mentally checked my weekend schedule and realized that this coming weekend is really the best and only option so I’ll be visiting Sunday-Tuesday.

AHHHHHHHHH I’m so excited but also nervous I almost had a panic attack last night when we decided (might have just been too much weed😵‍💫) but I feel better today. I really love him and can’t wait to see him. I’m worried about awkwardness (cause I’m sooo awkward and he kinda is a bit too haha) but I know it’ll be fine. I just have a lot of anxiety (and autism) so thinking about like seeing him and talking to him and touching him and him looking in my eyes AHHHH a little crazy but a good crazy 🥰

I just needed to vent really but feel free to let me know your first time meet up stories ☺️ it all help me feel better I think haha