Hello. I’m a 22 female, I live in Pennsylvania. I’m in college and I live in an apartment alone. In October 2023, I was still with my ex. We were together for 2 and a half years. He was living with me. I was very unhappy, not feeling satisfied and just got tired of his laziness etc. we were already just not okay and I already knew I was gonna dump him soon. i was dealing with super bad mental health stuff. i was thinking about ending things and i self harmed. One night my mental health was awful. I really had no one to talk to. Yes I had friends but I already came to them a lot and it was about 2am. I decided i needed to talk to someone. I posted on r/meetpeople about wanting to talk to someone about music and mental health stuff. I got a lot of responses. And i opened one. This man messaged me, I’ll just call him Sean. He lived in Switzerland. We started talking, insantly flirting. We texted on discord, talking a lot the first few days. I finally decided to tell him I had a bf and I was dealing with mental health stuff. He was understanding and wanted to help me out of my situation. He also was struggling with severe mental health issues as well, similar to mine. He was so fucking sweet like genuinely the sweetest person I’ve ever met. We continued to text constantly. And then started video calling everyday, and soon i broke up with my bf because i chose him and we started dating. No red flags except for maybe he was 21 and a virgin, never had a gf, lived with his mom?

It got pretty serious, he would send me gifts and money. And a few weeks into us dating he bought plane tickets to come see me in march. He showed me the tickets, screenshared everything and i saw that it was legit. He met my sisters and friends on the phone, i met his brother and his friends. We slept on the phone everynight, we called 24/7 unless he was at work. I changed my sleep schedule for him. I was sleeping from 6pm-11:30pm everynight to talk more. We planned our lives together, talked for thousands of hours, picked our kids names, and he was the most affectionate sweet bf i ever had. He posted me on social media, he made meditation videos for me, he helped me thru panic attacks. He changed my whole life. He made me better, happier, he texted me back within seconds, he called me beautiful a million times a day. I never loved anyone like him. He saved my life and stopped me from SH. He loved every inch of me and every aspect of me. He accepted me for me and encouraged me to love myself and be wierd. I gave him every last drop of energy and love that i had. My entire life was about him. He told me that he wanted to be with me forever and that he would never give up on us. He wrote me huge paragraphs everyday too. A few days ago he even ordered me a $1000 promise ring he was gonna bring to me.

The only issues we had that i had anxiety a lot and need reassurance and he got overwhelmed by that a lot. And in the past 3 weeks he was a little stressed because he was about to move houses. But this all ended 2 days ago. It Saturday. We slept on call and i woke up around 6am with him. We talked all morning as usual. He was happy, affectionate, sweet etc. we started watching a movie around 10am ish. Had a great time, laughing, talking, giving affection etc. and then around 11am-12pm his mom called him for dinner. He was calling me from his PC, on his webcamera. He really wanted to finish the last 5 minuets of the movie but i insisted that he ate first. He told me he loved me so much, blew me a kiss as always, and got up. I was just chillin waiting for his return. The call was still going so his room was empty. After about 15 minuets the call suddenly dropped. He was still upstairs bc I didnt see him or watch him come end it ofc.Assuming it was a glitch or he had to end the call on his phone for some reason. I decided to try to call him back. It wouldn’t let me and it told me to add him as a friend. This discord gltich has happened to me before so i brushed it off. Deciding to call his phone number to let him know discord was acting up again. His phone went to voicemail, i assumed it was off since he was eating. I decide to check Snapchat and message him on there.. he blocked me. I then checked instagram, Spotify, life360, TikTok, etc, blocked on everything. I started screaming crying. My biggest fear. I was freaking out, calling my girl friends, screaming crying. They loved Sean as well, they knew i was in love. I then remembered one of his girl friends instagrams, deciding to message her asking her if he was okay/alive. I asked her if she was friends with Sean to confirm and she blocked me.

So yeah…that was the last thing that happened. I have 0 clue what happened. Im honestly in huge shock. This was probably the worst breakup thats ever happened to me. Im so lost and so scared and worried about him… I am so broken and just feeling confused. He would never do this. He just isn’t like this type of person. Idk what to do.