Pretty soon me and her 5 year anniversary will be coming up and I honestly just dread it, we have been together for so long and haven't even met yet, Before anyone says "catfish" we have video called tons of times But I dread it more because a while back I quite literally spent money to go see her in NY and she didn't even come out to see me, saying she was scared of me, she was blaming the fact she was on her period because I tried to surprise her with the trip randomly, she was also dealing with school upcoming My girlfriend deals with all types of illness like anxiety and depression but I just dread the fact I've waited so long for almost nothing, I still love her to death and she obviously loves me but I haven't been able to let this go ever since it happened and it's a grudge I can't let go and it's made me so depressed, I don't want to leave her but at the same time I have doubts if she's even been faithful for this long so I don't know to be honest