There is a person I like a lot, and she knows that I really like her and we engage in casual flirting without any real commitment or expectation. We may also engage in certain NSFW speech/text directed at each other, share selfies and spend literal days in voice calls.

We've known each other for years now, and started really talking this february.

We met playing a sci-fi video game. It is our primary means of hanging out.

She had arranged for us and mutual friends to do a little movie knight in VR. Her PSU started smoking and her PC died.

This sent me into an anxiety spiral, as I am very afraid of losing her and my brain started catastrophizing her disappearing forever.

Fortunately, she says she can fix it by sunday.

Fortunately, we can still hang out in voice chat thanks to her shitty work/school laptop but... cannot stream stuff for each other nor game and even the VC quality is shit.

I feel guilty because my emotions are primarily about my ability to spend time with her being hampered rather than her direct welfare and hurt due to lack of her PC and massive expenses having to repair it. Like, I feel those emotions too - pity/sympathy/empathy, but overwhelmingly I feel a hurt over inability to spend time together this week through our usual avenues and it is gnawing at me.

I want to spend all my free time with her when possible and it isn't choking her other social life.