For some reason I find this so dang difficult. It's something I've never really had to think about up until recently. It was always just something that slowly came together through conversations with friends, girlfriends, family and etc but I'm at such a different point in my life then the people around me.

My life just went in a different direction then I had planned so even the plans I had previously made no longer fit and I'm just kind of floating by without direction. I expected to be tied down with a family but I'm now at a point I don't necessarily want that anymore but I also can't figure out how to maximize my freedom outside of shallow thrils and things that don't really make a life fulfilling.

I've thought about trying to get involved with something I care about but the way my brain works I tend to dive head first into things and then get burnt out so I'm scared to take on any sort of responsibility or commitment.

I guess I'm just trying to get my thoughts out there but would also love feedback from others in this spot or even better people who've found a way out. Its almost as if I'm no longer trying to no longer force my priority list but without that I seem to not have one lol