I just can't even remember the last time, I felt normal. I'm constantly stimulated by technology from TV to phone then laptop. Like I'm living in online world. I'm literally wasting time and life being distracted from technology. Because of underlying problems of not becoming strong mentally emotionally. I tend to avoid putting in the actual work where I feel like my confidence will grow. I feel like I'm not smart strong enough and probably I won't accomplish things. Which makes me not even want to try. I just keep overthinking and distracting myself. But even using technology, back of my mind. I'm always feeling worried anxious and overwhelmed. I'm not really sure why I'm having such a difficult time putting in the work.