It seems like ever since I graduated from college it's been one failure after the next and the never-ending pursuit of money to survive in this world. I'm in my late 30's and I feel I still don't have a foothold on the stability of my life, both financially and emotionally. I was thrown a bone though last year and landed an programming job in an IT firm, but I'm still not entirely sure I made it yet. I just want to ask, will the hustling ever stop? Will there ever come a point in life where I could just kick back and say, "I think this is ok already, I'm set for life, I don't have to worry about tomorrow anymore...". Whenever I go out, I always see this big smile on a lot of people's faces, and even my own family, it's like they're not even worried a bit if they could fall into poverty or anything, it's just like they don't give a damn. Is there something wrong with me?