Throw away account because I don't want to be linked but I'm struggling with something right now and I'm hoping you can help.

I moved away from friends and family 11 years ago and progressively since then, I've cared less and less about them. I mean deep down I still love them and have made new friends in the past 11 years but every time I see someone and hang out, spend time together, I'm over it after a day or so. Every time my best friend in another state says she misses me, I don't feel the same. I don't miss any of my friends or family. I enjoy seeing them when I do.. for a period of time before I get sick of it and just want everyone to go away. But I never miss them.. at all.

I always respond with "I miss you too" but I don't mean it, I just don't care. It's probably relevant that I haven't been in a romantic relationship for 8 years and I just literally don't find the opposite sex attractive. When hanging out with said friends and I hear oh look he's cute, I'm just like meh.. is he?

And even through typing that, I don't know what the point is, what I'm looking for. Maybe I'm just hoping for someone to share some experience they have. I don't know. I feel like it's a broken feeling, and that there is something wrong with why I just don't actually care about anyone else. It doesn't feel right but it's the way I feel.