For background I am 18 in two weeks and I come from a family that expands massively, therefore I have several cousins and I am close to some more than others.

one of those cousins who I used to hang out with a lot in my early and mid childhood years, eventually I moved away for a little bit and we started seeing each other less and by the time I moved back home we were both teens in high school and barely saw each other unless it was family related and even then we didn't talk much.

A couple months ago however, he got into a serious motorbike accident as he was riding around city streets without a helmet and he's been in hospital since, doctors have been trying everything but they've said that there may be no more options if he doesnt improve. Of course I pray he heals or a miracle happens as he is family, but if the end does come I don't know how to feel, on one hand he's a cousin of mine that I was close with for a long period but on the other, it feels like I don't know him at all.

I feel I'm not feeling as worried as I should be and I'm starting to get scared by that, what should I be doing.