I hate being so horrendous, I hate that all the go to the gym/therapy/ be yourself advice didn't work with me.

I'm fine with the idea of dying alone but I want to stop hating myself, I want to stop being frustrated over getting the short end of the stick when it comes to this stuff.

I didn't ask to be born defective and yet here I am.

I hate everything.

EDIT: Hi guys! It's been a while since I made the post, if I'm being completely honest I was throwing a hissy fit after seeing a post about people telling stories about their pretty privilege.

Even now I'm still getting support from people on this post, so I just wanted to let you know that my mind feels clearer now and that I recently bought a Samsung tab that I can use to start reading real books instead of reading Reddit posts, so if you are seeing this update I would appreciate if you can recommend books for me! "Except for the atomic " one I already read that one.

In summary, I feel better now, thank you guys.