I remember in the beginning I’d ask him to help clean the house together. He was like no problem. I can still picture him cleaning the ceiling fan. Fast forward years later. I ask him to help clean the house together. His response snapping I don’t live here. But I cooked for us just would like a little help cleaning up the kitchen. He’s just negative and not trying to help. I realized he thinks he’s better than. He forgets when he needed help cuz he was a mess. In each and every way yet I helped him every time he needed it. Does he do me the same? Nope! It sucks to waste life with someone that doesn’t appreciate you just uses you to level up then they gone. He gonna stay gone cuz he’s a waste of time. The sad part for me was I was lying to myself. Yeah he said he loved me over and over and over but his actions proved different. His love and my love were two different things. I held on for so long even tho his love hurt me over and over and over till I finally fell out of love. Crazy, man people are complex and relationships are misunderstood. I choose to be celibate at the moment because I’m gonna detox my being from the relationships that i have experienced. I mean shit nothing turns me off faster than a man wanting to use my body and play games with my soul all while telling me he loves me haha. Yeah I’m sure you do bud. How about you love yourself out my life and stay gone forever. Choose wisely who you let in your life. Even then it’s a gamble whether they will have the emotional intelligence to not hurt you. Sending virtual love to all.