Find it kind of odd. I find a little strange that at the beginning of the year you would tell me that you needed me but you didn't exploit the opportunities. I realize at some point , you will reach out. But I kept up the effort. Oh year when I could. Communication after all is a two-way afair. Get why you ghosted me. Can you reaching out again for me just blowing up your shit for a week giving you the same fight that you gave me in the relationship with broke up. We shouldn't even count that, wasn't even a week. Give her a year I gave her a week I gave her a day since her Merry Christmas and a Happy New years. You told me to leave her alone and I did. It is that simple. Yeah, I love her immensely and all I wanted ever since the day I met her hurt to be happy. And it's going to hurt and I'm going to suppress it. Numb it. Workout the problem, write out the problem, talk out the problem as well as fine distractions.

I came to realize when we last saw each other, that was your secret good bye. I don't know what kind of monster you think I am. Fucked up to hold someone's hand and give them remembrance and Hope. Have no intention of seeing them ever again and instead of saying goodbye see you later or whatever the hell you said. I saw how how you didn't bring you. Is I don't have limits like you're unlicensed whatever the fuck they are. You're welcome by the way the way. And I said goodbye and I meant it. I hope I never cross past the view again. How long is expecting is some effort. Because you see. I got problems of my own to deal with. I don't have to worry about no Hobo's slothman with a shotgun, okay? Clearly you do not know me very well. Personal one said I'm going to rehab while telling another time that I'm not. telling an entire group of people nothing. And I'm not going. I having different plans. Plans no one else needs to know about.

S.s., just like in the relationship I don't expect you to plan anything or put any reasonable amount of effort . And I most certainty wish that I could miss this but it never happened until after......You showing up and knocking on my door for once. I needed you as well. I will not stand such double standards. I couldn't believe that you couldn't see the value of my offer January of last year, you really a foolish woman. do you have HIV? Please let me know if you moved out of state or not. Let me know basic things. I miss your YouTube playlist. When you block me on YouTube so I can listen to your music. You songs are something different than I like....I miss your music....

S.s. I don't expect anything from you anymore.

All you have to do is just drop by before I dis