Ps. I am no coward. Being in your 40s is no turn off, you aren’t “too old”, if anything it's a boon in my eyes. Regardless of it, don't let your age stop you from reaching out. This applies to my peers too, I won't say no to someone close to my age, as long as you have something going on to pique my interest.

Trauma really manifests itself in the weirdest ways, doesn't it? For example, mine has manifested in an intense desire to bend older women to my will and make them my pets, toys, slaves (or whichever other word you'd like to use to describe yourself, dear). 

Before anything, I think an introduction is in order. 

Hi, my name is Ivy, I am 20 and I'm a college student. I'm a fairly chatty person, if the length of this post didn't give it away. 

I like to put an accent on communication and consent and I want to create a genuine bond with my sub(s). That's why I'd kindly ask you to hold back on jumping straight into a session and instead to tell me a bit about yourself. Present yourself, who you are, what you like and dislike, the type of sub you are, etc etc. You are in no rush. Whether this post is 2 hours or 2 months old, I'll do my best to respond with the same level of care and attention. Do your best, I'll eagerly read every line, I'm as big on learning about others as I am on talking myself. 

Now, about the kinky side… well, let's just say I'm not a pushover. I've had my fair share of experience, I practically jumped into bdsm as soon as I turned 18 and haven't really looked back. In the past 2 years I've done my best to look up online about how to best practice kinks, how to do them safely and so on, though my knowledge is almost all theoretical or experienced through the internet. 

I'm a very flexible dom, I mostly mould my way of domming after my sub and their needs. At my most comfortable I am stern but caring, not afraid to punish a brat or unobedient pet, but also kind enough to make sure she enjoys every second of it. I like being mean, I like praising, I like mixing the two, leaving my cute pets wondering if they should take it as an insult/degradation or praise. 

I don't think there's any mandatory kink for a dynamic to work, at least in my case, so if you don't like some of the stuff I'm into, no worries, that's not a deal breaker. With that being said, I am into a lot of kinks, way too many to properly list them here. Some of the highlights are: impact play, degradation, humiliation, spit play, cnc, body writing, giving tasks, pet play, bondage.

I like being in control, if you can't tell. The more control, the better. So if you're the type to enjoy losing control, to let someone else make decisions for you, to guide you through playing yourself and maybe even more, who knows, once we trust each other more, I wouldn't say no to controlling your day to day life, to a smaller or larger degree.