okay so she isn’t gone or anything, we are just long distance and she’s asleep rn and my phone crashed so the call ended and I don’t have the heart to call her again because she really needs sleep, so I’m just laying in my bed hugging my plushie LMAO Would I feel 1000 times better if she was on the phone? yes, but still not calling her i can’t 💔 i wish she lived near me, or me near her, idk and idc, one of these and everything would just be perfect. could even be like an hour or smfh like that, I could still see her irl everyday, kiss her, hug her, hold her hand and everything line that. i really don’t know how to show her i love her SO much with my words bcs I really suck at that, but I CAN show it with my actions, im really good at that, she would feel like the most loved girl in the world but she lives in a different country 🥲 also i’m just rambling cuz my friends are tired of me yapping abt her and i can’t stop thinking about her man, every thought and idea i have, have something to do w her and i just need to tell someone 😭 anyhow, i love her so much, i honestly didn’t know i was capeablw of loving someone as much as i do her. she showed me how it is to feel loved for a 100% for the first time in my entire life and it’s just all so crazy when i think about it. I can’t wait to meet her and just cuddle up to her or hug her closer to me when we’re both in bed and she’s already asleep instead of wishing she was with me. God i can’t do this i need to call her lol bye thank you for reading

lol edit 1h later: SHE WOKE UP AND TEXTED ME TO CALL AGAIN😝 i feel bad that she did but also SO glad, i always sleep better when she’s here😭 i love her so much plus she’s so cute i won life goodnight