So when I met my girlfriend of now 2 years she wasn’t into girls. Strictly dikly if you will. Long story short she had just got out of a 7 year relationship when I met her and they were still figuring things out. Fast forward a couple months after meeting her and spending everyday with her literally every single day … my lease was going up and she told me I can stay with her until I get a new place. A week after moving in I went back to visit hometown and when I came back I found out she was cheating, having sex with her ex, etc while I was gone. I asked her who she wanted and she chose him. So I left. Now I’m homeless and heartbroken right. Keep in Mind i live in GA alone with not a single family member. The very next day she called me crying and begging for me back even said I can come back and stay with her. Like a dummy I did bc I had no other options at the time. It lasted all of 1-2 weeks then she basically said I had to figure something out. Mind you this is my girl. So I got a Airbnb actually 2 for about a month (she even was coming to stay at my airbnbs with me some times mind you she has her own house this entire time.) it wasn’t working bc I couldn’t save for an apartment while spending all my money on Airbnb so I went nd lived with a sugar daddy from the club, he basically wanted to eat my cat every night for me to have a roof so I didn’t want to, then I met 2 more strangers who gave me roofs over my head for 6 months last year. Fast forward now I have my own everything place and all and the girl I’ve been with thru the last 2 worst years of my life is still my girl.

Today we went to lunch and someway somehow my old Airbnb came into convo which brought up old feels, I always wondered how could she sleep comfortably at night knowing me (her girlfriend) is laying under a roof with random men. At one point I was jumping back and forth houses every week. I know I made the decision to forgive her but times like today when I think about it I want her to say something that’ll make me feel less dumb for forgiving her but instead she said stop bringing it up lol… idk now I want to be single bc wym stop bringing it up ? That was just last year and til this day we never really sat down and talked about how ts fucked my head up.

Any advice ? Btw I’m 22 and she’s 30