Okay this might be a little rant but I need to know what to do from an outsiders perspective. I, 18F am in love with my best friend on the other side of the country, also 18F. l've tried to deny it but over the months it's just gotten stronger and stronger. We met online when we were 15 over shared interests and started texting and calling every single day. She was the only person I wanted to talk to and I soon found out she was also a lesbian but at first, I never ever considered her in any other way than a best friend and thought "there's no chance I could fall for her."

Well.... when we were 16 I was able to fly and meet her for two days and in those two days I came to a great and terrible revelation: I was in love. The whole time I stayed over hers I just felt a sort of good kind of tension between us but I just can't decide if it was one sided or not. Well when I went back home, and we talked over the phone again, all our conversations seemed to have a sort of charge to them. We would flirt as a joke and describe our ideal types that were unmistakably describing each other. She even compared us to the main couple of a tv show we both like saying "why are you literally character name" and I laughed at the joke before she continued "well that's perfect because I'm literally who the character she compared me to is in a relationship with"

When we would talk about deeper things and my troubles with making friends she would tell me she had no idea how anyone could ever not want to be friends with me because I was “gorgeous and funny and incredible.” At this point- I've never been more in love with anyone ever and would block out any advances from anyone else. I couldn’t feel anything for anyone but her and all the times any girl who would usually be my ideal type would talk to me, I would think nothing of it. She would play guitar on FaceTime for me and tell me certain songs reminded her of me but then… just recently all the affection just sort of...stopped.

I would try flirting with her but she wouldn't respond and would be dry when texting me. She would also start telling me about girls she was talking to which she never did before. She would say "I saw this beautiful girl at this restaurant and I think I'm gonna go back and ask for her number" and I would hype her up and mask my hurt by saying things like "yess go get her you can do this!!"

But now, she's currently talking to a girl she's been hanging out with and started talking to in the first place because of something we did together. I'll briefly explain that: we were on FaceTime making playlists for a show we liked and she posted it on her instagram story and the girl swiped up on it and they've been talking ever since. All the time spent with her texting and making effort to talk to me would go to this new girl. She would post about her on insta when she used to post about me. I've just been so hurt but been pretending I'm happy for her. All the girls she's talked to before have never been as serious as this and I'm scared I won't have ANY chance at all soon if they start talking. I'm ALSO moving across the country to go to the same university as her in the fall with the original idea that something would happen between us and that she would wait for me until then, but it's my mistake for planning to pick my life up and plant it somewhere else for a girl who doesn't want me.

I'm so so stuck. What do I even do. She barely talks to me anymore and I've stopped my flirting and affection towards her I case she's uncomfortable.

Please help lesbians!