ever since my first ever partner broke up with me, i started flirting with other girls and none of it really worked out. Not that they have seen my dramatic and emotional side, they just simply reject me.

these days, I feel like I'm not compatible to have a partner anymore. I traced the patterns and I always felt jealousy although I'm not even their girlfriend, I overthink whenever they give me less attention than before.. I want them to tell me if they busy then they're busy because I wait for them to respond, I guess I'm just into quick response. There are times I slow down responding even though I like quick responses because I don't wanna look desperate and they don't respond as fast I do.

I feel a little sad that I'm like this, sounds like I'm a red flag itself.