My girlfriend and I slept together for the first time in bed. Like we just actually slept together in the bed for new years. Was it hard yes because the cat kept us up all night and i elbowed my gf in my sleep on accident which woke us both up. But we also had fun because we were laughing.

But we finally fell asleep after a bit and woke up drooling which was honestly funny as hell. Then later in the day which was also the day she had to leave we did the do yk for a awhile without breaks and I had that sub drop thing and I was balling my eyes out. Like I could not stop crying for 2 hours and like she also had to leave which made me even cry more because I just wanted her to stay.

I didn't want her to leave but ik she had stuff to do the next day so what did my brain think of. I pushed her away when she was hugging me. I was crying my eyes out and telling her she needed to leave to get home safe which was true because it was 8pm already.

She was telling me to not push her away and saying please don't push me away and i eventually stopped and saw that she was crying which made me feel like shit and we where both a crying mess just held eachother.

We talked it out and later she left but after I was still a mess I've been crying for three days now all because I miss her alot and i slept in the same spot I slept in when she was over and I was just crying all night till I passed out and tonight was the same thing but with also other reasons. Stuff with her family and i got worried that I started crying again for a bit then stopped then just took the shirt off that was her's and i sniffed it and started crying again for another hour. Just sniffing it makes me cry. I never got like this before. Other then the other time we had yk and she had to leave and i ended up crying like a banshee in her car.

Like idk if it's just because if the sup drop that its fucking with my emotions so much that I've been a mess and or that my gf is going through stuff with her family that it's making me cry again to.

But I just couldn't stop crying and I cant sleep either tonight. Is this something that happens sometimes that the drop is just really bad? This is i think the third time it happened to me but this is the worst one out of all of them.