I have heard time and time again to "be yourself" or "just get out there" or "try working on yourself!" It's just feeling hopeless. My friends are all finding people and being happy and I feel like a horrible friend for being jealous of that. It just feels so impossible for me. I go to an online school, I don't have peers to connect with. The only times I go out of the house is for doctors appointments, because I'm sick and disabled and there's no way anyone would like me. I'm not attractive, I'm just a fat, black, disabled kid who nobody wants to know. I just want to feel accepted, I guess? I wanna be loved for who I am and not just for pity. I need genuine help/advice, please.