So me (20f) and my ex (21f) dated for a year and broke up a couple month ago, we were very toxic together and I eventually had to break up with her because I hated how she treated me and all the fighting. But for some reason I cannot let her go, we text every day and sometimes hang out as like friends (?) but whenever I try to talk to her emotionally about us she doesn’t take it seriously or like doesn’t seem to want to talk about it. I am a very deep emotional person who hates change and I still love her so much. The thought of loosing her and never speaking to her again makes me feel sick inside and cry but I know I can’t go back to dating her because the relationship was so painful. I don’t know what to do about this. I keep holding on to contact with her because I know we will eventually have to stop talking and I hate that. Any advice?