i (17F) fell in love with a girl and it’s been more than a year now. i never really confessed properly but she knows. today i found out that she’s finally going out with another girl who couldn’t be more the opposite of me. i knew what i was getting into and that nothing would’ve ever come from it, but i still resent myself for letting it go on for this long because now i have to carry so much weight and god knows how long it’ll take me to heal from this. i like to think that i’m not a stupid person when it comes to being practical and dealing with people and relationships, but i’m just dumbfounded. i let myself do all the embarrassing shit when this whole time she never even thought of me that way and probably made fun of me for being weird and cringe. i don’t know what to do. my chest has been so heavy since the last hour and i can’t cry anymore. i’m just ashamed of myself for even letting myself entertain fantasies that i knew deep inside would never happen. i think the worst part is she was a close friend of mine from my childhood. i’m so incredibly dumb i hate myself