I need advice. It isn't about that I am narcisstic and I'm thinking that everyone who see me will be attracted to me. I am scared that men will find me attractive. I wear baggy clothes and I look masc. ALL THE TIME since almost a year I am overconsious about my body. Year ago, in the first year of high school a 145 cm boy (not joking) from my clas was trying to bully me. I think it was becouse I always was very defensive and they just found it funny. Few weeks before I got out of that class he texted me (we haven't ever texting before) disgusting things, probably they were jokes to laugh at me in their group chat where even there he texted disgusting things that my female ex "friends" sent me (they were on the gc). He texted for example that he want to have sex with me etc.. Yea it even sounds like a fvcking joke but idk why it had impact on me and I took it serious, maybe I am overconsious becouse of other things idk. Also in last grade of middle school I had similiar boy in class who was saying also disgusting things (probably again - to make fun of me), I told my parents, they did nothing, actually that shouldn't be that deep so maybe they did right??. Even back then I looked like a boy honestly, every sttanger was misgendering me. Some time ago I heard in internet that some guys don't care if woman looks like a man, they would still hit on them. Just the idea that a man would think about me like that is making me sick and I don't know why I care what they think. I know that everybody can have bad thoughts with somebody it can be even a woman thinking about random man in public tho idk why I am making big deal with it. I had thoughts that even tho I'm identyfing as a woman I would have to become a trans masc to feel comfortable in my body or become skinny af to have no curves like some women do. Idk if it will fix it, I know have body dysphoria works and now I have huge while 2 years ago I haven't.