I hate being lesbian. I wish I was straight or atleast bi. I just left my now ex boyfriend who was also my long time best friend because after months of denial and calling myself bi, im a lesbian. I know I am. My relationships with guys have sucked I hated all of them and the one relationship I had w a girl was the best thing I ever had. Well my ex boyfriend hates me with all his heart because "I led him on" when I told him as soon as I realized that im gay. It doesn't help that my only friends are also all friends w him and we have a friend group so I feel like I will be phased out because im in the wrong. I wanna kms. I can't live like this. I hate being gay so much it's such a fucking curse. It ruined every aspect of my life and I just wanna die