As the title says, I don’t really think I’m attracted to people who are either my age or close to my age. (I’m 24) I think I see them way too platonically and/or immature for what I’m looking for.

I think too many of my peers engage in this hookup/casual dating culture and having this blasé mentality about forming any kind of relationship and it’s become so detrimental to the point where just attempting to make friends is like pulling teeth. Truthfully, if I were to lose my current friend group (seriously unlikely to happen, but it still), I think I’d probably just be lonely forever. That’s how hard it is making friends nowadays.

Anyway, honestly, I think I’m attracted to older women. Not too much older than me, maybe like five to ten years. And this is not to say that all older women are mature and have their shit figured out, because it’s definitely not true. Plenty of older women can be hot messes (yet somehow I still find myself craving their attention).

However, I linger back to this one time where I went to a queer bar (it was the Cubbyhole in NYC, rip to it being a sapphic only space) for the first time. I went to the counter to pay for a drink and this older woman was looking me up and down, like she wanted to ravage me. I miss the feeling that it sent down my spine. I wish I had had more courage to talk to her.

I’m not sure where I’m going with this, I think just typing it out helps to kinda sort through my thoughts. Thanks for taking time to read!

(P.S., where can I find older single lesbians? I’m desperately holding out for one.)