I have this friend at school, I fell in love with her a year or so ago but now love is hitting me hard.

We met in not the best situation considering I'm a lesbian, as she used to "joke" about kissing me, getting closer until our lips were almost touching and then walking away with a teasing smile, this when we weren't even friends and I hadn't come out of the closet, so I never knew why she did it, but it made me nervous. In one of those, we ended up kissing, my first kiss, and even when I thought she was sorry, she kept making that "little joke", however, the kiss never happened again.

Then we became better friends, I went to her house and everything was perfect, I was still in love with her but she now had a boyfriend so I took it as if nothing could happen. But she preferred to be with me than with her boyfriend, she didn't mind leaving him to go accompany me and I know that this is normal behavior for a friend but my head in love believed it was something more.

I came out to her, she told me that she had also had experiences like this when she was a preteen or child, that she had liked women, but that her mother told her that "That was not possible, that she was just a girl and that she will forget." Our relationship did not change when I told her that, however, she let it slip to her mother that I had told her I was a lesbian and suddenly she changed her attitude towards me, she no longer hugged me, she did not get close to me, and even when only our hands touched, not even touched, she would push her away.

This situation hurts me, I feel very rejected, I don't know what to do, I can't get it out of my head, I need advice. Why is she like that with you if we were going so well?