this weekend i went to pride twice. Saturday (08/03) and the Sunday. The events were free to enter for people so i gave it a shot. i have no friends so i went alone. had fun dancing and watching performances then went to a lesbian only event and the age demographic were mostly people older than me. I went to Pride on Sunday and it was so much more crowded. I went to a lesbian club event after and it was really good. there were loads of pretty girls but every single one i mingled with is in a relationship / big group so hard to isolate. at that point i was so high so i was feeling time pass by real weird. my anxiety is more calmed when im high but my attention span is so tiny. i did talk to the prettiest girl and it felt so unreal. i asked her if she was single first and i tried to give her a handshake but she thought it was a dap so that was gut-renching. so i asked her her name, age and if she's single. i did not ask about her contact or socials. i felt so proud of myself for even making contact that i genuinely lost focus and just asked her questions like i'm doing a questionnaire. dude this social life is not for me. having to be alone but also being introverted is torture 😭