My apologies if this question has been asked a million times. I've been on dates with women from dating apps but nothing ever lasted apart from a short fling. I also come across women who are married to a man and want to "scratch the itch" or women who are just disappointed in men and sort of fetishize lesbians I think... I've attended a party at a local queer bar but it was a lot of people and I just kept to myself.

I'll be 32 years old in a month and it's been weighing on me. Relatives keep asking when I'm going to find a nice guy and get married... but I'm still kinda in the closet (except with my close family). I also do not want children so that makes me feel like an outsider too.

I'd really appreciate any input :)