I have a lot of shame involved with receiving sexual pleasure. I really want to be able to but I feel like, it won’t be for a while.. I was sexually assaulted and forced into a receiving role when hanging out with a woman. She gave me non-consensual oral sex while we were under the influence and it has severely traumatized me. I don’t think I will be normal anytime soon (it’s been roughly 4-5 years since the event) however, maybe with the help of a lot of therapy, time and healing. I don’t know if it’ll even ever happen again for me. My wish is to find a beautiful, patient, feminine, soft, delicate, caring, understanding and wonderful woman. I want to meet the woman who’s my angel.. I want to make her feel like my queen and the only woman in the world. I really wanna fall in love and be happy. I know that my person is more than likely a sub that is heavily bottom leaning, problem is that most of the women I’m attracted to end up being givers or they also have sexual trauma where it makes it hard to receive. Where are the ladies that are selfish? That only wanna take pleasure? They are my dream come true… are these women rare? They seem to be…