So um i just left California and a girl i really liked for starters… i went on a lot of dates with this girl and we really really liked eachother and meshed well and had lovely sex and she seemed so…perfect and i just wanted her so so bad and things kept going well and eventually i had to leave and we told eachother wed keep talking and stuff and we did and we traded clothes and jewelry before we left and when i got home we said we’d write eachother letters.

I wrote mine and everything seemed so amazing still, i sent it with a few of my music cds and whatnot and i dont generally hand those out lightly. I had planned out moving to her city to be with her and everything seemed to be on the way.

And i kept thinking everything was going so well and i guess it wasnt cause she just sprung on me that she doesnt really have time for whatever we had and long distance doesn’t work for her and i totally respect it, she has a life and school and im still working in another city.

But i just, i feel so shattered. Ive never felt this horrible after a breakup/rejection anything…and i just feel like everything we had just flushed away because i know someone as amazing as her will move on quick and im just so heartbroken…

I know uhauling it is so stereotypical but…i really liked her and i still do, when i close my eyes i see her smile and its fucking torture..

We both agreed to stay friends but i just dont know how to text her when i still…love her i guess..

She was going to send a letter for my birthday which was just last week but i dont think that happened and i guess now its for the best :/