I’m a 1L student from a university sa u-belt, and I am having a hard time with law school. I feel so lost now with where I am now. I don’t know if this is the right path or not.

A lot has happened to me during the first month of law school lol. I’m a fresh grad and entered law school as a working-student (I worked immediately after graduating) because it was necessary at that time since we need money for medical treatments. However, a few weeks in, I resigned since I could not handle work and studies. Simultaneously, an immediate family died. I was not able to study. I would say that I had a lot of backlogs during that time (even now lol). I was left behind in terms of our readings and adjustment to law school.

Initially, this was not the path I dreamed of. I would say na I took a leap of faith since it’s the only one available. I worked sa legal field and saw how it worked. I’m interested with it naman. However, the finish line seems so hard to reach man haha.

I was not really an academic achiever, I’ve experienced failures. However, during college, I graduated with latin honors with a degree from a typical pre-law course. My point is, I’m already used to failures so I would say that I’m not bothered with my failed recits. I would also say that I’m thick-skinned to not be bothered by what the professors are saying. For me, nagegets ko naman yung tinuturo and the concepts pero the workload is killing me. Only problem I can see aotm would be my retention pagdating sa recitation ng cases and hindi ko matapos ang readings. They are piling up and parang nakakasawa na magbasa.

Despite saying na I think I’m strong for law school, i’m still gradually losing the will na ipagpatuloy ko pang mag-law. I don’t think my “why” is enough to keep me going, but idk it might be at some point. Maybe i’m losing my will because i’m pressured with my classmates who seem to have adjusted already. Maybe I’m pressured since i don’t really have a good recit pa. I know I shouldnt compare but we cant do anything with our mind sometimes yknow. Add ko narin yung parang I feel alone now, parang ang hirap na lapitan ng mga friends ko dati and even now those who are taking up law. They seem so busy and distant, and I respect and understand why naman haha.

PS: Sensya haba ng rant and magulo, pagbigyan niyo na ako hahahaha. Also, congrats to the recent barristers!!! Hopefully, you guys will pass and be the lawyers that u dreamed of ❤️