This is a long rant I apologize read with caution I was on Latuda (60mg) for over a year and it really helped my mental health. I struggle with adhd, depression, anxiety that's caused OCD, and a high chance of being bipolar after talking to 3 doctors thats why one of them started me on Latuda. I recently moved and got new insurance so I stopped taking it and never got back on it because of how insanely tired it made me and how nauseous I got even if I ate the calories required. Well I (F24) now live with my long distance boyfriend (M26) of 8 years in our first apartment which I've wanted more than anything for the longest time and now I feel like our relationship is crumbling because of the monster I am without my meds. I feel numb and I dont want to do anything and everything makes me furious. I have highs where I think it's gonna be a fantastic day and then I spend all my money and make really stupid choices. Then I have days where I can't move out of bed or I'm the meanest person around for no reason. I spent all my savings my house is filthy I don't want to be here and I just feel like a robot repeating my days. I would take the Latuda at 8-9 at night and I'd knock out but then I couldn't wake up.... I have occasional 5 am shifts that I could hardly make it to because I'd fall asleep driving. And I'd sleep half the day on my off days. But this was the only med that helped. I can't seem to find a psychiatrist taking my insurance or new patients I want to talk to someone other than my very bad doctor who said I didn't even need the Latuda. I feel like I'm getting to the worst point in my mental health and I'm thinking about telling my doctor to prescribe me more Latuda. Sounds like a simple fix but my brain is just foggy and not in a good place to know what's right or wrong right now.