I spent my early-mid twenties on a philosophical odyssey, binging on books, documentaries, classes, essays, forums and of course, discourse with friends and just isolated contemplation. I was certainly assisted in some capacity by psychadelics, namely psilocybin, a drug which I believe relieved me of my existential fear of death and assuaged me of my intense self-criticism and self-loathing. I became critical of everything- all aspects of society, governments, social norms, economics, education, the family unit, the food system, even the very concepts of fun, love, and happiness.

It got to the point where I burned myself out and basically became more satisfied NOT deconstructing everything because it just made me angry, restless and exhausted. Since then I would say I identify as an existentialist and while I enjoy the occasional philosophical debate and am still interested philosophical media like documentaries and podcasts (in moderation), I'm typically happy to leave many things relatively unexamined.

I'm wondering if it's because of this I have yet to find the philosophical qualities of LSD. For me, it's just been fun! I have noticed that I get quite 'meditative' on the comedown, and have spent hour lost in thought... but mainly on non-philosophocal subjects (or at least ones that are philosophy light). Or is it the dose? Thus far I have only taken about 150micrograms at maximum. Do I need to take more to unlock its potential?