Had my first trip just the other day and i am still wrapping my mind around it. I had took one gel tab. Im guessing 150ug.

I went and chilled on the couch for a little bit before noticing something strange. It was something about the screensaver on my tv. I began seeing shifting eyes through the light of the tv, it was as if i was looking at an omnipotent being, a Seraphim for example. This was the beginning of my trip, so I could kind of see through the illusions being created by the mind.

3 hours later. Im in room, examining the entire structure of existence. There was a lot of self-reflection. About the nature of human beings, our fears and anxieties. I saw it all. The entire pain and pleasure principle that governs our existence. I had a slight ego death around this time. I felt like a part of a whole.

It was more than I could hope for. What felt like just a dream, was the very expression of life itself. In that awareness, “I” wasnt there. The speck of the self had completely dissolved itself. My mind needed to find itself to know itself, the only real observer was myself. I was lost as a pure witness to the beauty of it all.

I realized that answers are always within us, and have always been. But throughout time, we choose to dissipate that energy in conflict.

I went to grab some food from the fridge, I noticed a spider in the corner of the wall. I looked at it for at least 5 minutes. Normally if I seen a spider I would spray it or smash it with my shoe, but this was different. I looked at buddy and questioned why I had ever wanted it hurt. He wants to live just as much as I do.

I went back in my room and got ready to go to sleep, but I was restless. Lingering in the back of my mind was the feeling of Godhood. I felt like we were all Gods. I also felt as if I were peeling the layers of my mind and as if I was watching myself from above at the same time. It gave me a Truman Show vibe, as if the whole time im in a play and observing myself at the same time. I also felt like i had broke out of the Matrix, and i wondered if the universe would notice. It made me think about the one scene where Neo is in the Matrix and the agents notice that he’s very different.

I had become even more restless so I took some good deep breaths. To be a calm human being requires that you accept your role in the universe. I took a couple melatonin and allowed myself to rest.

Overall 8/10. 🌌