Hey guys. So I’m my SO and I need your help. Desperately. I may not be able to keep tripping if we can’t figure out what’s going on.. and it’s our favorite way to fuck. Literally it’s our holiday drug for special intimacy times! I’m autistic. It’s important to understand this for later.

It’s all been going well. We’ve tripped a good bit together and it’s been so fucking mind blowingly connecting.

However lately I’ve gotten a bit stressed in moments when I’m really peaking and trippin. I feel like I know everything at once and like the universe clicks together in a way that makes sense. And then that’s turns me into an Alice in wonderland rabbit hole of : I’m autistic and usually nothing makes sense-

It turns into an anxiety spiral about my past and my mental health. It’s truly not fun.

I’d like to enjoy the peaks. Not get super stressed about knowing everything and feeling connected.

My gf and I have a few guesses:

•I’m a bit spiritually closed off and can have a hard time letting go and just vibing with the flow and letting it blow my mind.

•I’ve been a bit anxious lately

•maybe the drug just stopped working ok on my brain

•maybe I’m just straight panicking over lsd doing what lsd does and need to just vibe with it instead of thinking about knowing everything.

•I’m thinking too much and need to be doing something to deeply distract my brain like push my hands in clay while I listen to something loud on headphones

I hope this made sense. It was odd to write. Please help