Hey guys, I took my first tab 1 year before, I was in a forest with some friends and it was one of the most interesting experiences ever. Never felt so much like an animal, sitting in the grass and just living. Didn't get any insights from that trip, just felt a bit different after, can't explain. But that was expected, since my set was just to have fun and get closer to nature. Now, after a year passed, I found a supplier and been experimenting again. I tripped two times on 150 micro (at least marketed as such, and according to descriptions of how a 150 trip feels like, I'd say it's accurate), in my room, alone. Now my setting for both was 60% fun 40% insight. For fun, got some nice visuals and made some playlists. For insight, I put some questions down for myself and took the tab.

Here is where it gets weird. Even though I was on a higher state of being, when I thought about problems about my life I just couldn't form thoughts. I forced myself to think deeply about what is my purpose and such but I got zero answers and the thoughts I had was just very forced and it was like a person trying to act motivated and enlightened. I can almost cringe thinking about it now.

What I felt wasn't that different from how I've been living sober, just kind of not thinking about stuff and living life day by day. Thinking about my life was almost boring, I WANTED change but I didn't know what for, kinda felt very unmotivated. It just felt like I was wasting my trip so I wanted to listen to some pink floyd.

Now I have two theories, maybe it's just a mental block I have within myself that even LSD can't break through, so I need to think about my life deeply everyday so I can find that problem. Or maybe the dosage isn't high enough for me to really dive deep into my psyche and just dig things out piece by piece. Or honestly it could be both, which makes the most sense.

Note: It could have something to do with me just being in a room. Being in a forest was 10x better and euphoric for me so maybe that would put me in a better state of healing.

What do you guys think about this? If anyone had the same problem how did you get through it?