Over the past 10 years I’ve tripped on and off about 3-10 times a year and in that time my brain has changed so much that no matter how hard I try i can never be the person I was before my last trip. Even if my trip is perfectly fine and I have a great time it’s like after, when things finally get quiet and I’m not tripping anymore I feel lost kinda like I don’t know how to just exist without an immediate or constant goal. And then after a few days when I’m back and I have more of a sense of self I’m never the way I was before the trip, as if my whole life started at the end of my last trip. Does anybody feel this way or just me?