Early this week i decided to do a very high dose of lsd. I was recently hospitalised for a pregablin & mdma overdose and caught with ketamine 4 days later. I’m very close to being kicked out my house due to constant drug abuse & hospitalisations and refusing to accept help. This trip changed me in some way and it made me realise drugs aren’t gonna save me and there are many reasons why i should stay alive. I came home after a long day out tripping and thinking about life. It was a very challenging trip and i could barely even speak by the time i was home. As soon as i walked in, my mum noticed my pupils were huge and asked me if i took anything. At first, I denied but then she began to cry and I just couldn’t lie to her anymore. I felt so guilty for everything and ruining her life because im so broken in myself. I broke down crying into her arms and said I was ready to get help. I’ve never wanted to do this before and I think this is a good first step in the right direction to recovery. I’ve been struggling with ketamine, opiates, cocaine, benzos, meth. Pretty much everything. LSD is one of the most powerful substances around & i’ve had so many profound experiences on it and I think it has been beneficial in making me see the truth and realise what im doing to myself and others. (i was also tripping for like 18 hours lol)