It's been a bit since I tripped. I went deep for a bit , 3 tabs like 4 years ago. I was clearly abusing it and using it foolishly. The first few times I took LSD it really showed me why life is worth living , the love inside life the good. Nowadays I don't feel the same love for life as I did in the past.

I'm just taking 1 tab this time , the reason why : I got stuff to figure out. I'm not too sure what honestly. For the past cpl months I've been slowing on weed to a stop. I haven't smoked weed since last week. I've been meditating, exercising trying to better myself. I feel guilty for the past year, I couldve took a little better care of myself.

I wanna take LSD for therapeutic reasons. I just feel like I'm running in place. I can't put my finger on it but it feels like I'm trapped behind a door. If I take LSD it'll open up a place where I'll be clear headed idk I feel like I don't really have too much of a motive for life. I'm not depressed whatsoever it's just that I feel everyday is repetitive, I feel a need for a kind of release of that makes sense.

Idek what I'm asking anymore. I guess what are some ways or things I can do to maximize my experience to come out of the trip with a better mental clarity or better thought about my overall life to actually have the realization to make better choices.

Do I want an empty stomach , full stomach ? Cut down on caffeine for that night ? Drink coffee? Smoke weed ?

Or even if I should do LSD in the first place as of right now. Should I keep on going in life just kinda hustling/ doing my best to resist temptation? I feel like there's an aspect that exists where I'm just looking for a fun night and that's sometimes not the best. I'm not sure if my position even is to better myself using LSD or if I want a fun time. I feel like a lost little doggy that wants to make it back home.

I would also be substituteing LSD for my preference of shrooms. Last LSD trip was 5 tabs (holy moly) I was puking and it made me realize not to rush things impulsively. I can't get shrooms at the moment but a moment occurred where LSD kinda found its way to me (kinda a spiritual reason to trip) (my work buddy had randomly offered me a tab)

Can anyone relate / share an experience ?