I have a long history of depression and suicidal tendencies so when I texted my mom that there was something important I needed to tell her, she immediately thought that I wasn’t ok. But she called me and I tried to tell her that I was fine and I would prefer to talk when she got home, but being the stubborn mom that she is, insisted. So I told her that I am pansexual. She had no idea what that meant, was super confused, had a crap ton of questions, and no idea how to deal with what she just heard. She was reeling. She even sounded mad on the phone. But she said she needed time to think and process so she hung up. So now I’m just sitting in my room, my anxiety through the roof waiting for her to get home. So yeah. I’ll update this as the story develops.

Update: So my mom is being very accepting actually. She still says she’s confused but that she completely accepts me for who I am and loves me. My dad on the other hand, did not take it well. He said that he has major issues with it. And he insinuated that he thinks it’s a phase. He laughed at me, shook his head, rolled his eyes, cussed me out at one point. Told me I have no idea what I’m talking about because I have no life experience. And I don’t think he even really believes me. He also told me that he had a bunch of things he wanted to say but he couldn’t because they would be offensive. I broke down crying at one point and only then did he start to calm down. He ended it with “I have some major issues, but I still love you.” He also did say, in between the anger, that I was still his son. So that’s good, I guess. I’m just kind of summing this all up into that they just need time to process. So we’ll see I suppose.

Update II: So my dad has still not come around. My mom is being very less accepting. They just keep insisting that it’s a phase. I got a Pride flag for Pride Month and my dad called it a “fag flag”. So yeah. We’ve gotten into so many screaming matches at this point, I just don’t bring it up anymore and I’m acting like I’m basically back in the closet. So yeah. Hooray.